Its tomorrow night!
12:46 a.m. - Friday, Apr. 07, 2006

OMG!!!!!!!!! Its tomorrow!! I can't wait!!! It's finally here!!!!! Notice that I'm using ALOT of exclaimation marks!!! Whahahha! If anyone of you called me now, I'll probably be so excited that I'll scream into the phone!! WAh!!!!!! But I'm not so looking forward to the hangover the next morning which I know I will get. Hmmm, which reminds me, I better remember to pack some panadols and buy lots of carrot juice and milk. My hangover cure..

Oh yah, reminder ah, don't be a dumbass and bring the presents to MOS and give them to me inside the club. What the hell do you expect me to do with them?? Put them with the baggage and give me after we finish clubbing or give them to me another day lah! If you give it to me in the club, I'll stuff it into your mouth. Not to sound ungrateful or anything la, but its the truth.. Be smart ok people?? I'll see ya tomorrow night! Woo Hooo!

Calm in the eye of the storm
10:56 p.m. - Tuesday, Apr. 04, 2006

I've calmed down and thought things through. Maybe I over reacted just a teeny weeny little bit. But I'm alright now, these kind of things are inevitable I guess, but I just got upset that it had to happen now, just when my birthday is around the corner. Oh well, I better get a really really good present, or else I'm gonna be upset all over again. Haha!

Upset like fuck..
3:21 a.m. - Tuesday, Apr. 04, 2006

I'm upset. I'm really really upset.. I've just received news that has put a damper on my birthday celebrations. No, nothing really serious like people dying and stuff. Just a certain someone that would not be here for my birthday celebrations, and for my actual birthday also. It's bad enough that Neeta couldn't be here, but now.. Another one too?? My mood has shifted from being totally excited to half excited, maybe lesser.. Anyway, I'll try to look on the bright side, at least I'll still have my friends to celebrate with me on that day..

On a brighter note, I've received the notification from MOS stating that I've been selected for the band.. Now all I've got to do is to go find my student pass if I haven't thrown it away.. But I still have my ezlink card though. Would that work?

Bruised and Aching!
12:38 a.m. - Monday, Apr. 03, 2006

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I'm falling sick! I've got a sore throat, slight flu and I feel a fever coming on! This is not happening!! With my birthday celebrations so close and all.. WAH LAO! I've been popping all the pills and vitamins I can lay my hands on in a bid to get well soon, but it doesn't seem to be working. Maybe what I need is a good rest..

Went volleyball training again last night after such a long hiatus. More than a year I think.. And I come back home with bruises and aching muscles everywhere. My forearms and bruised and swollen and my knuckle has turned purple cos of the huge bruise on it! Looks horrible, even worse than the first time that I learned how to play volleyball a long time ago in Sec 1. My arms didn't look that abused or tortured.. Haha! But I'm satisfied. The rush I get from playing again overpowers everything else.. Can't wait for the next training, even though it means that my sat nights are burned. Worth it though. =)

Went to the pasar malam this afternoon with Gaffur and Sufyan. We had smelly toufu! It stunk! Really! After I bought it, the first whiff of it after opening the cover made us wanna gag. I felt like throwing away the whole box even though it was untouched. But brave me made myself take a bite after much giggling and groaning about the smell. The first bite was horrendous, but after a few more, it wasn;t so bad. I was actually beginning to enjoy it! Sufyan and Gaffur also tried it, but only Gaffur threw it up. He gagged and spat the whole thing out and was cursing and swering the whole time. Hilarious! Sooooo.. Anyone wants to kiss me now?? Hehe!

OMG!! 5 days more!!

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2:11 a.m. - Saturday, Apr. 01, 2006

Think I'm falling sick. There's a flu and cough bug going around, and I think I got it from my dad. Been sneezing and coughing non stop since Wednesday, and the fact that I've been keeping late nights doesn't help either..

Anyway, stayed up late last night after I got home from prata to watch the movie "15" by Royston Tan.

Just got the DVD from gaffur last night.. I must say, the movie is really interesting. My mum watched it with me, dunno if she enjoyed it as much as me, or if she even understands it completely at all.. But she said that it was nice, but not something that she wanted my brothers to watch, at least not in the next 3-5 years. She seems to think that they will get ideas from the film, which I think might happen, though not as bad as she thinks. But after watching the movie, it really touched me on how there are some 'forgotten' kids out there, kids that the government has forgotten in their bid to be a global city. Kids that grew up in the heartland, but are losing out just because their way of living and their mindset is not in line with the government's. Their take on brotherhood reminds me sharply of the gangster and triad hongkong movies that were hugely popular before. The way that those men would do anything and everything to help their 'brothers', even at the risk of their own lives, always blew me away. The movie also gave me a glimpse into my brother's life. Although he may not totally be like the characters in the movie, but the way they think and behaved in the movie really gave me a better understanding of why my brother does the things he do.. Now that my eyes are opened abit wider, maybe I'll be able to get along better with him.. Just maybe..

Irked!
10:54 p.m. - Wednesday, Mar. 29, 2006

Was working at Caltex today. So fun. Seems everyone there is quite excited about my birthday celebrations. Hehe. I STILL am excited! So excited that whenever I thought about how near it was, I starting jumping around and grinning to myself. Aszly said I was mad. Ha! MOS is settled, but the food for the bbq is still not settle tho, haiz, so many things and factors to consider before I am allowed to settle on one. My dad lah.. So irritating. He said he won't do anything to help me, wants me to do it myself. So, it obvously means that I'll be doing it my way. But nooooooo.. He wants it done his way even though he doesn't want to help. Like What The Hell lah! Haiz. But he's paying for it, so I guess I better do it his way then. Another factor is also cos everyone I emailed or messaged is not replying to me! Like only less than 15 people replied on whether they are going or not or will tell me at a later date! So irritating! So hard to just reply me meh? If I'm inviting you it obviously means that I would like for you to share my birthday with me, or else, why the fuck am I inviting you at all??!! It just irks me when this kind of things happen. I guess I have to call or message them tomorrow. Waste of time. Arrggghh!

Finally found it!
11:19 p.m. - Tuesday, Mar. 28, 2006

Went shopping with Adeline today. Wah! Bought so many things that I almost bombed out! Ok, maybe not that bad. Haha.. But I finally found a suitable top for the 7th of April!! Yay! And its like damn nice la! But it cost like.. OMG. A BOMB.. But I think its money worth spending cos its really really REALLY very nice. And it was the last piece in size S in Singapore. And there wasn't very much to start off with in the beginning. So lucky!Its my birthday present to myself. Hehe. So happy when I finally got it that I was smiling all the way till I got home. Hee! I think Adeline really is my shopping muse. Everytime I'm looking for something that I have in mind, I will always find the suitable one when I'm with her. The first tme was when I wanted a denim skirt, looked for days and couldn't find it. But once I was out with her, I found the perfect one. The second time was when I was looking for a short black skirt. As usual, couldn't find a suitable one no matter how hard I looked. Even worse this time was cos Neeta went with me at first and she in the end convinced me to buy another denim skirt that I didnt need at all! But when I went with Ade, found the perfect one.(No offence to you Ta.. Hehe.) And today was no different, looked for weeks for the perfect top, but couldn't find. Once out with Adeline, BINGO!! Haha. Next time I know who to look for if I want to buy something that I have specifically in mind. =D

I'm soooooooo excited!!
8:40 p.m. - Monday, Mar. 20, 2006

My my.. I've been busy haven't I? Diary's been dead for quite some time.. Well, I've been busy with work, then by the time I get back home, I'm so tired that I haven't got the time to update! But I'm trying tho.. Hehe. And now, I'm busy preparing for my birthday celebration. My god, I had never realized how much there is to be done just preparing for a simple bbq! The food! The choices! The logistics! I can almost faint. And the bbq is just one part of my birthday celebration. And I'm doing it all pretty much by myself. If I can pull it all off properly, I'm gonna be so proud of myself man! Ha.. I'm so excited that I can't sleep at night just thinking of it! =P

Alright, I'll update more when I have more to write about.. Wish me luck for my preparations!

Leaving on a jet plane
11:35 p.m. - Thursday, Feb. 16, 2006

My god. She's gone, she's finally gone. Was at work today and I was so bored with no one to talk to, so I picked up the phone and dialled the first number that came to my mind. Halfway through, I realized it was Neeta's. I got quite sad, realizing that I was missing her. Shit. Sound so sappy. Then I didn't have anyone else to call to disturb cos everyone else was either working, or in the bloody army or overseas. Bleah. so in the end, I stood there and stoned.

Was just thinking back to the day when Niza, Gret, JY and I sent Neeta off at the airport. Everyone got so emotional that we cried. So embarassing. Ha.. But, I comforted myself that next year would be my turn. Hopefully..

Just trying to get used to having one less best friend around. Makes me value Niza and Carol more. Can't help but wonder how I'll survive without my bitches. Dan could ask me the other night why I was so sad Neeta was leaving. Felt like bonking him the on head with a pillow. Like DUH. I'm a girl, we need to talk and share, with one less person, much less one of my best friends, its kinda like losing an arm or a leg. Figure of speech, not that serious, or else people will think I'm lesbian. Ha..

Holiday Cheer
11:18 p.m. - Friday, Dec. 23, 2005

I think its been 3 weeks since I last update. Gosh. So long. Haha. Well, have already started work at PF. And I got the track pants that I wanted! Courtesy of Mummy dearest! Hehe. 2 NIKE track pants, latest season. *beams in delight* All the while I was wearing the red Body Combat shirt that they gave me, until it came to the point that I didn't think they would give me the white Adidas one. But surprise surprise! Vanessa gave me one yesterday while I was working at Suntec. Yay!! Sooooo happy! What else? Hmmm, ya, I've been to all four clubs already.. And quoting Annika, or is it Terence, I can't remember, I'm a Titanium staff. Cos everytime I meet someone new, they ask me where I'm stationed at usually, to which I reply, "Everywhere." Lol. But I have to admit, I like Caltex the best, cos its the SLACKEST place and I get to watch movies while I work. Haha! Actually, the rest of the clubs are fun, except for Far EAst Square. So stressful. Especially when we run out of towels and poor me has to run to Clatex to borrow.. =(
Thank God I don't have to work tomorrow! I'm so tired! One of my diving friends coming over tomorrow morning to borrow my fins and mask. Apparently its for her school underwater hockey thingy. Sounds stupid. Ahaha! Maybe I should rent it out to her, since I can't dive for the time being.. haiz. Speaking of which. I MISS DIVING!!!! I'm the most stress free when I'm diving. So relax, swim amongst the fishes, play with box fishes, go looking for sharks and turtles and stingrays and whales.. Lol.

Christmas is coming! And I'm broke. Gifts of cash anyone? Hehe! =)

New track pants!!
2:52 p.m. - Sunday, Nov. 27, 2005

Wah! I so excited! Going to start work tomorrow at PF! Hehe! All thanks to Neeta for this opportunity. But abit stress man, heard from Neeta that they only took me on cos she said alot of good things about me. So I have to live up to the expectations. STRESS!! Hah! But ok lah, I'm sure that I can handle it. Hehe. Still need to go get my track pants for work tomorrow. I've got gray, blue and brown track pants, but not black. Haiz. But I've already got one in mind. One that I've actually been eyeing for quite some time. Just nice, can get it. Hehe. Best of all, my mum's going to get it for me! Haha! Yay!

Memories
2:23 p.m. - Monday, Nov. 21, 2005

I admit, I've been neglecting my friends recently. But I've been so busy with family that I fall asleep almost immediately after I get home at night.. But now, I've been thinking about them again. I miss my poly days!! Seeing my friends everyday till I'm sick of them. Lol. When can we meet up again people??!!

Fun times

I remember this photo! Taken in Year1 while waiting for the train at YCK.. Lol.

Ahhhh... Genting Trip. Almost the whole class went.

Hahahah! The ever lovable Saz. My room mate in Genting. Lol. Who knows what he's up to now?? I miss him corny-ness. =D

Celebrating Saiful's birhtday at Neeta's chalet..

My favourite picture of SW!! With Yanni's signature pose.. Haha!

The guys of SW0202. Need I say more?? LOl.

Princess Hanny's Birthday Celebration! Memorable man.. Shall we do it again?? Hehe

Phototaking for Yearbook Day. Hah.. Goodness, look at Shawn..

Class of SW

The only 7 girls of SW0202.

Oops. Yanni and I seem to have blocked out alot of people. Haha!

Official Grad Day!! Taken together with Mrs Janice Tay and Mr John.... erm, forget his surname. Ho? Tan? A little help here guys??

Lateeeeeeeeeee update
11:36 a.m. - Saturday, Nov. 12, 2005

My gosh, I was just looking through my pictures and I realized that I've not put up the pics from the KL trip for ages already! Hmmmm, how careless of me.. Well, as some of you might know, I went to KL for the weekend about a month ago for the Moto GP leg of the race in KL. Woah, was that fun.. The room was fun too.. Haha. We stayed in a suite!! Cool!

Hard Rock Cafe KL

Heh heh.. Premier check in know.. =D

View of toilet through opening in bedroom wall

BIGGGGG BED!!!

Sitting area

Office area. With my dad trying to act busy

Closet that opens both ways. From bedroom and from the dressing area. And yeah, that's my brothers wrestling on the bed.

Dressing area leading to bathroom

Bathroom with bathtub and shower

View from hotel room. Not very good.

Dinner at some cock up bak kut teh place.

Race Day!

Miniature kid's racing

Vespas

The area behind the glass is the VVIP area man..

Starting line

Valentino Rossi on the huge screen. Cos he was too far away to see properly. hahaa

Winners podium

Momento of Moto GP

My mum and I at dinner

My dad(in yellow) and his friends. Yellow, yellow, dirty fellow. Hahahahha!!

Squareeeee
9:47 p.m. - Sunday, Oct. 30, 2005

Today, I went to get my phone repaired at the Samsung Service Centre. Was told that I'll probably get it back in a couple of days and that they'll call me. Who might have guessed, they called me back a few hours later. I thought that they had already fixed my phone, that got me really excited! But... It turned out to be worse, they had to change the motherboard and that would mean that all the data in the phone would be lost! Forever! Luckily I backed up my contacts and stuff last night.. My picutres I'm not so worried about, cos I've got most of them downloaded into my computer already. But its my SMSes in the phone that really breakes my heart to lose.. All the encouraging words and concern from friends when I fell ill, and of course.. Some others from a certain someone.. Lol. Well, I'll just have to deal with it I guess. *Sobs*

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Dad's Birthday Celebration(Sorta..)

Dinner of Satay, Fried Rice(2 Types), Veggies of god knows how many types, Meat of god knows how many types.. Erm, jus a whole lot of food going on..

Me and my 6 year old chatterbox cousin

Gosh! Look at the size of that thing!(I'm refering to the bowl.)

My Grandma the Glutton

The picture that made me drop my phone..

Family Pic! And no, I'm not the shortest..

My Aunt, Dad, Grandma and Uncle

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Oh, I forgot, my Dad took me shopping today! Hehe. And he bought me Levi's Square Cut Jeans!!!! Soooooooooo HAPPYYYYYY!!! My Daddy is the bestest Daddy in the world! Heh heh..

Phone problems
10:41 a.m. - Sunday, Oct. 30, 2005

AARRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! My phone is spoilt again. This time is all because everyone was telling me to quick take pictures before the wind blows out the candles last night. And in my hurry, I dropped my phone. When I heard the loud thud of heavy plastic against tile, my heart broke, little by little.. I quickly grabbed it and checked it for any cracks and whatnot. And thereupon. I found out that my keypad centre column of buttons wasn't working.. I got so depressed that I didn't have the mood to eat anymore. *Sighs*

Lazy Birthday..
5:23 p.m. - Saturday, Oct. 29, 2005

Yesterday was my Dad's birthday.. Since last year his birthday sucked, my mum and I thought that we would make it up this year by bringing him to a nice place like Jack's Place or similar to have a nice birthday dinner. But to my disappointment, he felt lazy and only wanted to eat somewhere near our house. So in the end, went for dishes and rice.. Haiz.. Of course we ordered nicer stuff lah, like chilli crab and curry fish head. But still, being in a restaurant would have been nice.. Dumb Dumb Daddy. Hmpf.

Later, going over to my aunt's club. Second round of celebration for him, this time with my grandparents and uncles all.. We're gonna eat satay on a Saturday! Lol! Ok, fine, I know, I know. Oh no! Forgot to charge my camera, not sure got enough battery to last the night or not... Dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. Sure get scolding from my aunt.

Yay! Tomorrow gonna play volleyball again in a long time! I MISS VOLLEYBALL!! Neeta, on ahhh??! Tell Adeline already or not?? So looking forward to it.. =D

Pssst! Ta, See? No depressed or pissed in this entry. Hehe! It's a happy entry!! Sorta I think..

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10:23 p.m. - Tuesday, Oct. 25, 2005

I'm shagged out from going out with Neeta today. Feeling depressed. Think it's cos of the rapidly dropping bank balance. Bleah. I think I shall not care and go ahead and work anyway. Die from stress then die lah.. Right now, no money really can die.. Haiz. Anyway, one thing to be kinda happy about.. New layout. Goddess.. Hmmm, sounds heavenly doesn't it? Haha. Which girl doesn't dream of being a beautiful being with powers and charms beyond imagination. I for one have.. Hehe. And watching Charmed hasn't helped either.. =þ

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1:58 a.m. - Tuesday, Oct. 25, 2005

I'm pissed. The first entry in a long long while and I'm freakin pissed. Not a good sign.. Just got off the phone, conversation didn't go too well. Didn't start well, didn't end well. Reason for the bad start? Stupid female insecurities. Reason for the bad end? Stupid phone in the computer room.

Actually.. I'm not so much pissed as I am frustrated. The sad frustrated sort of way..
Oh! What just dropped on my keyboard? Hmmm, its liquid.. A tear? No. That can't be. I never cry.. The roof must be leaking. I must remember to tell my parents that.

Shark Sightings
12:49 a.m. - Monday, Jun. 20, 2005

I saw SHARKS! White tipped reef sharks to be exact. 4 of them. Yes! Mission accomplished! Ok, just got back to Singapore at around 9.15 pm. Very eventful day. More updates when I get all the pictures from my friends. Tired, hungry and grouchy now. Bleah. Ciao..

Leaving on a jet plane....
3:38 a.m. - Monday, Jun. 13, 2005

Well, I'll be leaving for Phillippines in a few hours time. Flight at 7.15am and I have to be at the airport at 6. Wonder why I'm still up? Cos I procrastinated yet again.. I finished work at ard 12am, rushed home to pack, and onli finally finished at ard 3.30am. Too little time for me to sleep, so I thought I might as well update one last entry before I go MIA for a week.. Lol. Right Now, I'm feeling tired, my eyes are blur and I'm a bit drunk. Shared a bottle of wine with a friend cos he visited me during work today, or rather last night. HAha. So if there's anything you guys wanna contact me about, sms me and I'll try to return it as soon as possible! Anyways, wish me a safe journey guys!! And cross any spare fingers that you have that I'll see sharks!! Yay! More updates and photos when I'm back!!

Tanned and satisfied..
9:11 p.m. - Friday, May. 27, 2005

I've discovered a new hobby. Can anyone guess what it is? It's........... SUCBA diving!! Haha. I just came back from taking my advanced diving course in Pulau Aur, and it was great! This dive has totally changed my perspetive of diving. I saw a lot of things! Crabs, hunting barracudas, trigger fishes, bumphead parrot fishes, lot and lots of sea slugs and sea urchins, and I saw my first sea turtle!! And from that moment on, I fell in love with the sea.. =D

What's next on my diving programmes? Hehe.. Phillippines! I'll be heading down to Puerto Galera for diving in June for a week. Ahhhh, so exciting! I can't wait! I've already got my wetsuit and mask, all I'm missing is my fins, BC, booties, snorkle, regulator and I'm ready to go! Woah, that's a lot of things missing. Lol. But all the shopping for dive equipments are burning a hole in my pocket.. *sobs sobs*. Plus, I'm working everyday without off days so that I can earn enough money to pay my mum back for the Phillippines trip. Haiz, there's not much time for me to do my all time favourite hobby anymore, Shopping!! So sad.. In any case, I'm too busy trying to earn as much money as possible to think about anything except sleep whenever I can.. Lol.

Birthday Update!!
10:41 p.m. - Tuesday, Apr. 26, 2005

Ok, I know. My bad habit has resurfaced again. I take eons to update anything interesting.. Let's see, what happened on the 17th of April 2005? Well, for one thing, I turned 20! And contrary to what others say, I DO feel old! Now, when people ask me how old I am, and I say 20, I always do it with a lot of sighing and wincing. Why? That's because I feel damn old compared to the 13-19 age group. All beacuse of the number 2 in front of my age. Or maybe its because I've had 7 years to get used to being a teen, and only 10 days to get used to being 20... Nahhhh.. Lol.
In any case, let's talk about what happened on my birthday. The night before my birthday, I went out wif Joshua and Merril as they wanted to "celebrate" my birthday for me, in other words, try to get me drunk. As we met up quite late at night, then we headed to a dive shop where I got my birthday present, a diving mask, from Joshua. Then we headed off to find some food and drinks. Went to Holland V. first for food. As there wasn't many places that served alcohol that was still open at 2+am on a Sunday night, and thus, we ended up in Bishan park cos there was a pub there that was still open. Ended up that I saw Ivan(SW0201) there also. Turns out that the old boys from KCP hangs out there quite often.. Lol. So I met quite a few of Merril, Joshua and Ivan's friends. I guess the funniest guy was one that introduced himself as Ser Kit. But I misunderstood and said, "Huh? Circuit? What circuit?" Then his face went slack, like he kanna bang.. Lol. Then Merril said,"His name lah! You think what? Short-circuit ah?" And that was an embarassing moment. Lol. In any case, he bought me 3 tequila shot, but the damn owner of the pub added at least 3 other liquor to it, Baileys, Barcardi and Cordon Bleu. There was fire buring on top of the shots and all.. and when I finished all 3 shots, Damn! I was feeling a bit woosy. Added to the beers that I already had, I wasn't feeling too great. However, I didn't throw up till I reached home. Lol. Better than throwing up in public..
The next day,my birthday itself, I woke with a pounding headache. A brand new present for a brand new day. After I took a bath and slept a bit more, I felt loads better. Almost myself again. Haha. I nodded off and woke to the sound of plastic rustling. I opened my eyes and saw my youngest brother, Linus, rummaging through my bags on the floor. I asked him what the hell he was doing and he said he was looking for my camera. What for? To take a funny picture downstairs. And just for a while only, he said. So I gave it to him and he went off. But I was a little suspicious, so I looked over the 2nd floor railing to see what he was up to. I saw him with another boy wearing a yellow shirt and cap. I assumed that it was his friend, so I went back to bed. However, the real surprise came when I was suddenly startled awake by screams and shouts of "Happy Birthday!" Party poppers were popped, and a camera was filming all my reactions. Damn. I was so shocked to see Neeta, Niza and Carol in my room at 11+am, that the first thing out of my mouth was,"My room very messy!!!" Haha. Couldn't help it, I was too shocked! Lol. Carol was carrying this huge cardboard that had the words "Happy 20th VINA" carved on it. Although my name was formed using burst balloon bits and scotch tape. It looked like something that a kindergarten kid would do, but it was still very sweet. They bothered to wake up early in the morning and come over to my place to surprise me. Awww... Just made my heart melt.. Hehe. Oh yah, the boy in yellow turned out to be Niza in her yellow tudung and shirt. Lol. After that, they made me go downstairs and see all the decorations that they did for me, which meant a few balloons taped to the overhead wall at the bottom of the stairs and a bunch of balloons on another wall. But it was still the thought that counts rite? Lol. After that, they locked me out of my room so that they could choose the clothes that I was to wear. After that, they made me sit in my parent's room while they fussed with my hair. After they were finally done, we headed to a "secret location" in Orchard to have lunch. Which was Pizza Hut in Lucky Plaza. Haha. After lunch, we headed to Paragon to play dress up, where they picked some of the worst clothes ever to be made for me to wear. At least it was only in the dressing room. Lol. After that, we wandered to Heeren where I pondered and considered and finally decided to get my new specs made there! New funky red specs. Haha. While we were still in Heeren, Neeta and Carol went to the loo, then they called Niza and said that Neeta met her JC friend and was chatting with her, and so asked Niza and I to go walk around first. Then another call came and asked us to go out of Heeren to meet them. Niza led me to NYDC and turns out that Neeta and Carol bought a slice of chocolate ice-cream cake with candles and all for me.. Ohhh.. I was so happy I was beaming all the way.. Haha. They gave me a bracelet with a huge pink butterfly on it.. And when I got home, there was a hidden present under my blanket that poked me on my butt when I jumped on my bed. A box with a blue table clock in it was the cause. so all in all, I had a wonderful and enjoyable and surprising 20th birthday!! *smiles* Thanks loads to everyone who wished me happy birthday and made it a great birthday!! Lurve you guys!!

Birthday Pics!!

The outfit they picked out for me.

Some of the balloon decorations

Inspecting the clothes they picked out for me. Lol..

Blur and disheveled. That's how I look most mornings. Not a pretty sight.. Lol.

Before the "makeover". Lol..

I'm being tortured!!

The finished product.

Watch where your hand is going Neeta!!

Looking good Neeta.. Lol..

Ugly shirt 1.. Yucks. Haha.

Ugly shirt 2. Auntie Pose 1.

Auntie pose 2.

Finally, something nice! Lol.

Carol, Me and Niza.

Neeta, Me and Niza.

Me and my melting birthday cake. =P

My present! The bracelet with the huge butterfly.

Birthday present 2. My diving mask.

the present that poked me in the ass. The blue clock.

Me at another birthday celebration with Adeline, Tracy, Jian Hong, Pradana, Alvin, Terence and Wei Guang.

Me and Adeline.

Me and Merril

Me and Joshua.

Language of roses
2:39 a.m. - Friday, Apr. 15, 2005

Was surfing cos I was too bored, then I came across this article. Quite interesting, and a little bit of trivia for all..

Language of roses
Roses have had meaning since the dawn of time. Everyone knows that a red rose is a symbol for love but did you know that when you give a bouquet of white and red roses, it means unity?
Read on to learn what your favorite roses mean in the very special language of flowers.
In Victorian times, suitors would present a bouquet to their intended that held much meaning once the flowers were looked at. These bouquets were called "tussie-mussies" and every courtship began with their presentation. The content of these tokens often changed as the relationship did until the bride walked down the aisle with the most meaningful bouquet.

. Red roses say “I love you” and also stand for respect and courage.
Rosebuds symbolize beauty, youth and a heart innocent of love or: “You are young and beautiful.” Red rosebuds mean “pure and lovely” and white rosebuds signify girlhood or “too young to love.” The moss rosebud stands for confessions of love.

A single rose stands for simplicity. In full bloom, it means “I love you” or “I love you still,” and a bouquet of roses in full bloom signifies gratitude.

White roses have several meanings: “You’re heavenly,” reverence and humility, innocence and purity, “I’m worthy of you,” and secrecy and silence.

Red and white roses together, or white roses with red edges, signify unity.

Pink roses in general symbolize grace and gentility. For more subtle shades of meaning, choose deep pink to stand for gratitude and appreciation. Light pink conveys admiration and sympathy.

Yellow roses usually stand for joy and gladness, but can also say “try to care.”

Red and yellow blends stand for jovial and happy feelings.

Coral or orange roses denote enthusiasm and desire.

A deep burgundy rose means “unconscious beauty.”

Pale colors convey sociability and friendship.

Hybrid tea roses mean “I’ll remember you always” and sweetheart roses symbolize just what their name implies.

Two roses taped or wired together to form a single stem signal an engagement or coming marriage.

A full blown rose placed over two buds forms a combination that signifies secrecy.

Withered white roses have two meanings: fleeting beauty and “you made no impression.”

A crown made of roses signifies reward or virtue.

Rose leaves are a symbol of hope.

I'm gonna miss.....
1:22 a.m. - Saturday, Apr. 02, 2005

Well.. Its been after another long period of absence that I've finally decided to come dust off my diary again. Haha. Well, the final exams of my poly life are finally over and done with. And truth be told, I'm actually gonna miss that freaking school! Well, maybe not the SBM director and the stupid rules of no slippers, but everything else, I am gonna miss. The easy going camaraderie I have with my classmates, the breaks in between classes where we go to the canteens and talk and laugh ourselves silly, the malay food in North canteen, people parting like the red sea when we walk around as a class and all wearing the SW shirt, boy watching with the girls during breaks and giggling like mad, when we play games during breaks as a class, our class BBQs, actually, I'm gonna miss my class the most.. God, I sound soooo... Not me, all reminiscing and all.. Haha. But I guess its the whole truth. Well, enough of that, its see-who-looks-silly photos time!!

Last Day(boo hoo..)

Our dear Tahir, suggesting lunch somewhere on him.. Hehe..

Claire struggling with her contacts and screaming for me to help her.. haha

Guang with his SW autographed shirt..

Group pic 1( we're missing a few people)

Candid Pic 1. Product of Thomas' marvellous photo taking skills--> Saiful's face is cut off. Makes you look mysterious though.. Hehe

Candid Pic 2. Caught unawares..

Candid Pic 3

Dunno what this 2 jokers doing.. lol.

Back shot 2

Girls of SW0202!! Sweeeeeeeett.

Girls of SW0202!! Sweeeeeeeett. 2

Hmmm, yeah. That's what you think it is. Melvin proposing.

Yeah. I don't want to talk about it. I got a feeling I'm gonna heard about this for a long time coming..

Shawn, Me and Hamid.

Dollar Signs in My Eyes!!!
12:58 p.m. - Friday, Mar. 11, 2005

Yaaa.... Ok, I know. Its been eons since I updated. Laziness plus internet down at home plus being busy with all the projects in school caused the current problem. Haha.. And I must defend myself, my diary being quiet doesn't make it scary. My diary is just taking a well deserved rest from the hustle and bustle of daily life.. =D

So.. What's been up with me since I last updated? A Lot of THINGS. But I forgotten most of them. Haha. Ehhh, I try to remember lah. *Thinks really really REALLY hard* Ahh, I got it. I went clubbing a few times. Haha. Anything interesting happened during that time? Yeah, lots, found a slutty girl to hate then found out that it was an accquantice of someone I knew.. Saw Taufik during that same night also. Found out that another friend of mine is the 8th wonder of the world cos she talks non-stop. Even when we're dancing.. Played In the NUS beach volleyball competition. Not such good luck this time round compared to the SMU competition where we got 2nd. We almost made it to the semis in the NUS competition. Lost out to another team by just 4 points overall.. Haiz. International Business presentation is down! Just 3 more to go!! Haha. I spent the wednesday night at Neeta's place to finish whatever projects we could. Started at around 10, ended at around 2+, 3 am. =( Ohh! Just remembered, worked at NUS on Wednesday for Laser Skirmish. We had a booth there. Basically we did nothing except slack, play with the guns, run around shooting each other, and taking lots of nonsense pictures, all cos we were too bored. Haha. Easy money!! Tonight and tomorrow night, I'm gonna help my aunt out at the country club where she works. Not sure what I'll be doing yet, but I think most probably is doing bartendering or something of that sort.. Soo exciting!! Never done it before and always wanted to try it out.. Wahhahah!! Tomorrow morning I'm working for Laser skirmish also! At Orchid Country Club. Wahhh... Soo much work! I can just see the money rolling in!! *Money! Money! Money!!!* Muahahahahha!! I'm happiest when I see money. Hehe.. So you guys know what to give me for my birthday.. MONEY!!! Whahahaaaaaaaa!!!

Are you dumb? Are YOu DUMB?? ARe YOU DUmB???!!!
4:03 p.m. - Tuesday, Feb. 15, 2005

My thumb has healed!! Ok lah, 85% recovered. Only thing is that I still can't really bend it fully. So it still looks a bit retarded. Haha. OMG, I jus realized, this is how long I have not updated!! From my thumb being injured to my thumb being 85% healed. But then I got a valid reason, my house internet is down! Don't know what my brothers did to it again. Blardy idiots. So I can only update when I'm in school or if I come ta's house and borrow the computer, whch is what I'm doing now. Hahahah.. Anyway, lots of things happened in between. Chinese New Year(ang bao!), a new job(more money!), Nat's party(WooHoo! That was fun!), lost money during gambling(not fun), went to lots of Chingay rehersals(forced by my dad), I went running and..... Eh I think that's all.. Haha. I went running with Nat today! I almost died. Then she gave me and ta a ride to ta's house. Later she picking us up again. Haha, so good right? I Love Ya Nat!! I Love Ya Neeta!!(for lending me your toilet) Muahahaha! Oh yah, playing in a beach volleyball competition this sun. Yay! So long never go beach already. I'm losing my tan and starting to look like the underbelly of a fish--> White Haha. Wah lao, Robert Tan's lesson later on. So sian. He's the most boring and oldest person to ever teach me. I always end up doddling on the lecture notes. Stars, hearts, boxes, stick figures, bingo, tic tack toe.. You name it, I most probably have it. Haha. Haiz.. *Yawns!* *Yawns!* *Yawns!*

Suay man.
11:24 p.m. - Tuesday, Jan. 18, 2005

Ok, it's official. I have an extremely swollen and discoloured left thumb. Which makes typing, wearing my clothes, eating and basically anything that involves using my hands, very slowwwww........ For the benefit of those who do not know what happened, there's the story.. On monday, I went to volleyball training. I was warming up with 2 juniors by volleying the ball between us. Then suddenly 1 of them spiked the ball towards my head and I was taken by surprise, so I put my hands up in front of my face to block the ball, and I don't know how I was so lucky that of all the places to hit, the ball landed on my left thumb square on. Haiz.. So, my thumb started hurting like mad immediately. And that's not all, as I was sitting on the bench minding my own business, with Jian Hong to help me tape my thumb, out of a sudden, we all heard,"Ball!!" I looked up and a ball hit me directly in the mouth. Turned out to be that bloody Dong Sheng who spiked the ball. Suay man.. After that, I was already very wary of whatever was happening around me, so I kept my left hand behind my back while I was watching them play. On my right were 2 of the guys from the guys team volleying a ball between them. All was fine until my phone beeped. As I turned around and leaned forward to get it, 1 of the 2 guys volleying the ball spiked it and of all the places to hit, it had to hit my left hand. So that almost left me in tears.. Monday was my SUAY DAY!!!! Argh.. Going to doc tomorrow to see if there's anything wrong with it. Hopefully all the guys teasing of my thumb being fractured is wrong.. Haiz. I have a bike practical tomorrow! I put it up for try sell and no one bought it.. Boo Hoo.. Huat! You were wrong! Bluff me.. *pouts* Haha. Now all I have to figure out is how to ride the bike without injuring my thumb more.. ='(

Why??
9:55 p.m. - Sunday, Jan. 09, 2005

Why? That's a very good question. Why do we have to study? Who made up the education system? Who said that we had to study to survive? Where is the Garden of Eden? Is the snake still there? Why is my hair always so messy? Why is the weather always so sucky? What makes the sky blue? Why are people always asking me if I have a boyfriend? Why can't they leave me alone? Why do they think it's any of their business? Why is my family so screwed up? Why am I so lazy sometimes? Ever had the feeling that you have been used? Ever felt stupid and silly and so utterly pathetic? Have you ever been on such a high that you feel the world is so beautiful and nothing could pull you down? If you have, please tell me how it feels? What makes the sky turn orange? Why are pigs called pigs? Why are they not called butterflies? Why do we grow old and die? Is there really an afterlife? why is the grass always greener on the other side? Why can't they say that the water is sweeter on the other side? Why can't we fly? Would you like to fly with me??

Don't mind me. I'm just rambling. Out of my mind..

post christmas..
1:13 a.m. - Wednesday, Dec. 29, 2004

Right.. Spent Christmas at the beach. Expected the beach to be crowded cos of the holiday, but surprisingly, it wasn't. All of us were fooled by the long queues at the habourfront interchange. The queues were snaking along the barricades and beyond! Guess the people must have been out in the other tourist attractions like the Merlion or whatever there is to see other than the Merlion. After spending the day at the beach, I headed to my aunt's place in Tiong Bahru for a Christmas dinnner. I heard from my mum that my uncle was gonna cook his famous chilli crab, butter crab and peanut crab, and that was the main reason why I went for the dinner. When I got there, I saw a steamboat and a barbeque pit being set up. So I thought, "Never mind, the best is being saved for the last. I can wait for the crabs." After all, I saw the crabs in a plastic bin in the kitchen waiting to be slaughtered.. Wahahaha! But alas, who knew that once my mum, my aunt, my uncle and my cousin sat to play mahjong at 9, they didnt stop till 4am in the morning. So in the end, not only did I not get to sleep, I didn't get to eat my chilli crabs also!! Arghh! Total waste of my time going down for the dinner. *pouts* But that's not all, I got home at 4.30am, and slept at 5. And when we got home, that's when my mum dropped a bomb on my brothers and I. We had to get up at 9 the next morning to go to the temple to pray cos it was my great-grandmother's death anniversary. And I didn't get to sleep after I came back from the temple cos I had to go out again. So.. My christmas was a very, very tiring holiday. I pray that my new year is nothing like this! Or else I will go mad from the lack of sleep. Blah.

My nose is running from me!!
7:50 p.m. - Wednesday, Dec. 22, 2004

I'm sick.. I've been sneezing the whole day. And because of the sneezings, I have a runny nose and teary eyes. Actually ever since I got home last night it has been like this. I've been sneezing since I got into bed till I fell asleep, sneezing since I got out of bed this morning, sneezing all the way to work, and sneezing during work. If what people says about people thinking/scolding you when you sneeze more than 2 times, than this person must really love/hate me, cos I've been sneezing my fucking nose off!! But I think one of the main reasons is that I've been eating lots of heaty foods and keeping late nights recently. The downside of enjoying so much. Urghh. Haha. And with Christmas just 3 days away.. Not like I celebrate it anyway.. hehe.

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Tomorrow's my last day of attachment! Yay! Cos the clinic is not open on Friday. Suits me just fine. Haha.. I can get to finally catch up on my sleep and the charmed vcds that I've borrowed from Neeta..

I ate.. And ate.. and ate!!
10:55 a.m. - Friday, Dec. 10, 2004

My right hand is numb. It's numb from all the typing that I have done over the past 3 days. All that I have been doing is sitting in front of the computer and typing in the data. There's only one word to describe this. BORING. I think I've gained some weight too. All these typing made me feel bored and sleepy. So in an attempt to keep awake, I ate. And ate. And ate.. But Thank God Its Friday! I can't take anymore of this anymore. I will go mad I tell you. MAD!! But another good thing, I'm meeting Niza for dinner later, so that we can bitch and gossip. Haha. Tomorrow I'm going Sentosa also, with Adeline, Neeta and gang. I can also finally even out my tan. Volleyball chalet on sunday. Should I stay over? Hmmm, what about work then? Take a day off? Wouldn't that mean lesser money? Hmmmm, I'll consider. My dad's in the Chingay Parade next year. He's very excited about it, cos he's in charge of the harley's formation and all that kind of shit.. I think he wants me to go and take photos for him at both the rehersals and actual parade. Every day all I hear out of his mouth is Chingay parade this, Chingay parade that. That is how excited he is. Acting like a five year old kid expecting his birhtday party.. Haha..

Shit.Damn.Fuck!
10:59 a.m. - Thursday, Dec. 02, 2004

In the office right now, haiz... I was supposed to be off for today!! My supervisor gave me a half day off yesterday after the Health Screening at CPF Building cos I was sooo tired that I was nodding off over my food during lunch. She also said that I could have Thursday off. I was soo happy! Thought that I could finally sleep in for once. However, another colleague said that she needed my help for some stuff so I said, "ok, if you need my help, I can stay behind to help you." Then she said, "Never mind lah, if I need your help tomorrow, I'll call you by 3 this afternoon." So I happily went home and took a nap. I woke at around 7+, just in time to watch Singapore Idol. Checked my phone and didn't see any missed calls or messages. So I naturally assumed that I had the day off! Who knows, when I came out of the shower, I saw a missed call and a message. A feeling of dread came over me, sure enough, it was a message from another of my colleague asking me to come in at 9am to key in data. GODDAMMIT!!! Haiz.. So here I am now, freezing my ass off, wondering when I will get my pay, and keying in these stupid boring data..

Goryyyyyy.......
9:05 p.m. - Thursday, Nov. 25, 2004

Saw.. Hmmm, what can I say about it? Totally gross. Made me want to puke up my dinner while watching it and also after. Urghh. But the plot was quite good, with twists. Very surprising ending. It still gave me the chills while I was walking home alone after the movie.. You would like it if you can stand all the blood and gore.

Seen Saw? Saw Saw? See Saw?
4:34 p.m. - Wednesday, Nov. 24, 2004

Well.. Something happened with my brother again. I wasn't surprised at all when I received the call. After all, I already have this mentality that once my brother steps out of the house, something is bound to happen. If he comes home without any mishaps, its a fucking MIRACLE!! And like I've said before, no sympathy for him please. Its a waste of emotions.

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Jian Hong just called me not too long ago. Asked if I wanted to watch the movie Saw with Tracy and gang. And have dinner before that. Said ok. But wondering if it was a smart thing to do now, cos have to wake up early tomorrow for Health Screening at EDB again. Been there since Tuesday and will be there till Friday. One thing good about that plce is that there is a lot of space for them, as in one whole building floor space has been converted and dedicated to EDB staff recreational useage. How cool is that. They have a drinks vending machine there, you know, the one that dispenses hot drinks in little paper cups that you have to pay for and usually see in hospitals? Its free vend. The snacks vending machine is like fucking cheap, ranging from 10 cents to 60 cents for chips, nuts, chocolates and what-not.. They even have a fusball(table football) machine there! And couches and floor cushions and all that! and plasma TVs! How cool is that?! Based on that, I may just want to work there in future. Hehe..

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Roxy Jam coming up this Saturday in Sentosa. With the roxy pageant and all.. Will finally get to be in the sun and become a little more tanned, rather than continue looking like the pale underbelly of a fish as I am right now. Haha.. Pray for SUN!!!

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6:59 p.m. - Monday, Nov. 22, 2004

Fucking Asshole of an Idiot brother that I have. That stupid shit head has gotten himself into more and more trouble. So much so that my father punched him in the face the last time he got into trouble and wasn't sorry about it at all. I almost gave him a kick in the balls myself. Fucking asshole. He must have been dropped on his head when he was young. And don't bother sympathizing with him. It's a waste of your emotions. I wish he was dead sometimes..

Movies aglore!
11:51 a.m. - Sunday, Nov. 14, 2004

I'm gonna watch Princess Diaries 2 today!! With my mum.. Which is kind of a stinker. But the bright side is.. She's paying!! Muahahaha!! Popcorn and drinks and tickets on her! Haha.. After that, my mum wants to go to Chinatown. To buy toiletries I guess.. Shampoo, soap, blah blah blah.. I guess I have to carry them all back. Sigh. Poor Me.

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I lost my contacts! Again.. Haiz. The last time i lost it was when I went diving. And that was in April I guess. This time I lost it was cos of my own carelessness. Went down the drain while I was cleaning it.. Damn. So I have to make new ones again. Costing me 145 bucks man. Oh, heartache man.. And I've learnt my lesson, never clean your contact lenses without the basin stopper down. And what a expensive lesson it was..

Yum..
4:56 p.m. - Friday, Nov. 12, 2004

*Yawns* Knockng off in 4 minsute time.. Hehe. Going to eat at Jumbo Riverside tonight with my Jumbo friends. Chilli crab here I come!! Woo Hoo!!! Haha.. Later!!

I promise!!
10:20 a.m. - Friday, Nov. 12, 2004

Ooooooo!! The more I look at my template, the more I like it!! HAha.. Anyway, changed the entry style from one entry a page to a weblog style.. Would it be nicer? Only time will tell.. Haha.. K, lame. Well, don't expect much from this entry. At work now, so can't expect me to write much eh? But I promise, a long and interesting entry coming up soon. Hehe. I think the reason I didn't update so much was cos of the screw ups with my previous template. Got me so irritated that I didn't feel like writing anything anymore. Heh.. So now with a whole new look, I just might update more often! Haha.. K, till then!

Revamp completed
7:25 p.m. - Thursday, Nov. 11, 2004

Soo... How does this one look? Persoally I like it.. Haha.. Took a long time to change it so that I could put all my nonsense junks in.. Haha. Now, all that is left to do is to update.. =þ Hehe.. Think I will be able to do it??

Shedding..
7:03 p.m. - Thursday, Nov. 11, 2004

In the process of changing the template.. Yay!!

I miss my life a year ago..
10:22 a.m. - Wednesday, Oct. 06, 2004

BOO!! Everything sucks right now!! I hate my life as of now.. I need to catch another movie.. Haiz..