soulsearching

A Funeral and a fun-filled weekend
11:59 a.m. - Monday, Jun. 14, 2004

Hey all! Missed me? Haha.. I know you guys did, don't try to deny. =þ It's been a loooooong time since I last updated. Let's see.. What happened since then?

Oh yeah.. My grandmother went to heaven and became a fairy. Quoted from my aunt. The past week has been a hectic one.
Monday morning, was rudely awoken by my dad saying that my grandma has just passed away. Called Fu Qiang for urgent leave and went down to my grandma's place. When I got there, everyone was a mess. All my aunts were crying, my mom included. Most of my cousins were crying too. But I didn't. That didn't surprise me, I know myself, I don't cry easily, or rather, I don't like to let people see me cry, funerals included. The rest of the day went past in a blur.. There was so much to do that there wasn't time to stop and think about anything at all.
Tuesday, I went back to school to settle some stuff. In the evening, went back to the funeral. Carol and Chun Wei came down to the funeral. They stayed till around 9+ or 10 and then went off. I stayed till around 4+ in the morning, then went back home to sleep.
Wednesday, woke up at 11+ in the morning, pottered around the house for a bit and went back to sleep only to wake up at around 4+ to get ready to go to the funeral again. Spent most of the time foldig joss paper. Neeta, Vic, , Saiful, Guang & Huat came down to the funeral. Thanks for coming guys.. Appreciate it. I didn't go home, spent the whole night up folding joss paper with my cousins. Damn, there were tons of joss paper to fold man. All of us were stoned there. The feeling was almost like the time we went for the overnight Sentosa training camp, but a lot worse..
Thursday, damn, that was a busy day. We had the rituals in the evening, it lasted from 6 till almost 1 in the morning. My legs almost became bowlegged after kneeling for so many hours and I was disorientated from walking so many times round and round and round the alter. Stayed to help out till around 5+ in the morning then went back home to sleep.
Friday, well that's the day that we buried our grandmother. But before that, as we took one last look at our grandmother, I'm not ashamed to say that I finally cried. I didn't want to actually, but seeing all my aunts and uncles and cousins before me cry upon passing the coffin, emotions took hold of me and I couldn't stop myself from crying. And once I started, I couldn't stop till around 15 mins later. That's how bad it was. And that was the longest that I have ever cried.. The rest of it was a blur, I remember throwing dirt onto the coffin and then walking off without a backward glance. Actually, we were ordered not to look back at all. After that, we went back to my grandma's place to pack up. Finally, went home at around 4+ or 5 in the afternoon.

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Ok, now comes the weird part. Most people would think that after a funeral, I would be too tired out to go anywhere else or that it would be a just wrong to go to, like a chalet for example. You are sooo wrong. After the funeral, I washed up and went for dinner with my dad and brothers. Then I went home to pack for my senior's birthday chalet. She and her boyfriend picked me and another friend, Adeline, up at around 10 and we went for supper at Changi and also to pick up another friend, Raymond. The nasi lemak was delicious man. Of course we did some "sight-seeing" along the way. Hee.. There were many pretty "girls" around that day. Raymond got picked up by one of the "girls", but it wasn't so bad, it was the prettiest "girl" there. He even got "her" name and number! What a flirt. In the car on the way to the chalet, he was even contemplating whether to SMS "her" or not.. Haha.. What nonsense man.. And of course he chickened out in the end.. =þ
Back at the chalet, we got so bored that we started playing drinking games. We played till 4+ am and finally stopped when my senior got too drunk to continue. It was such a funny sight seeing her fall off the bed and hit her head on the floor and say "ouch!" like 5 mins later.. Haha.. She and I drank the most that night I would say.. I went out for a walk with Adeline and we came back to a room filled with the stench of vomit. Turns out my senior vomited just after we left the room. So Adeline, Raymond and I spent the better part of an hour cleaning up the room and airing it. We finally went to sleep at 5+ after my senior stopped fussing and finally went to sleep..

Think that's the end? Haha.. Far from it. Lucky me had to wake up at 7 to go to school. Imagine.. Waking up at 7 on a saturday with a headache with only 2 hours of sleep. Well, things could be worse I guess.. LOL. After school, I went back home to sleep. Only managed to get around 1 hour of sleep before having to rush to training at NIE. After training, my team mates and I went down to the chalet for the BBQ. And it wasn't surprising that Dawn, Adeline and I became the cooks for the night. We stayed there at the BBq pit cooking from 9+ till around 12+ when all the food had been finished. But it wasn't without its perks. For one, we get first pickings from the food. Second, there's always people bring us drinks and fruits. And third, it was great fun. Haha.. Really bonded with my team mates and coaches that night. Got to know a lot more people too, especially some cute guys.. Hee. In the end, only Adeline, me, my senior and a few other guys stayed over. Cute ones at that.. Haha.. We played drinking games. Again. This time I didn't lose so much. We probably would have continued if Jonas didn't vomit and found out that his throat was bleeding a little.. After that, we went out walking again and talked lotsa crap. But it was fun.. And that's what matters most. =þ Then we headed back to the room to try and get some sleep. Woke up at 9+, checked out at 10+ and went for breakfast at Macs in Whitesands. Talked crap, gossipped alot and laughed over the incidents that happened over the chalet before heading home. well, that's just about what has been happening over the last week of my life. Fascinating isn't it? Sarcasm intended. LOL.. Well, hope you guys had fun reading this really really long entry.. Bleah` =þ