I dreamt of happiness, but woke to reality.
12:13 a.m. - Tuesday, Oct. 14, 2003
The feeling of contentment in my dream was so strong. It's the kind of feeling you get when its a rainy day, and you're indoors, all warm and toasty. The kind of feeling you get when you curl up with a good book and hot chocolate, and you know that everything's alright. The feeling of contentment..
In my dream, we were sitting on a couch. Watching TV I think.. There were other people in the room, but I'm not too sure.. He was sitting near me, not near enough to feel his body warmth, but close enough to touch. I was nodding off, with my head drooping forwards, but struggling to stay awake. I was also starting to feel cold, although I was wearing a sweater. Then, he moved closer till our thighs were touching. Then he put his arm around me, and laid my head on his shoulder. I snuggled up to him, feeling warm instantly. A strange feeling swept over me. I felt that everything was right, there was nothing to worry about, nothing to fear. He would be there for me.
Then I was awoken by the incessant ringing of my phone. I put the dreamt away, into the back of my head as I got ready to leave the house. I had forgotten about it, till just now, when I came across an entry that I wrote some time back, in July I think.. I quote:"I dreamt of happiness, but woke to reality." Then the dream came back to me as clear as if I just had it.
I need to talk to someone about this, but not tonight. Tonight, I need to dream..
